Saturday, May 11, 2024

WHAT IS LOVE TO ME



 Love ..... what is actually love ???..... 

To me, love is something where u will find yourself in them 

All I know Is that love is not for me cause whenever I try to love someone they will go away from me from my life I don't why that happens everyytime cause if I start saying things from the past then the 1st one to leave me is my doggy yeah you heard that right. So lemme tell u all stories 

I was 1 when we had a stray dog named LALU. He was middle-aged, with golden brown hair, and energetic, overall he was beautiful and charming. We kept him on the balcony or rooftop I don't remember that but I remember he was my great companion. There are still some memories of him in my mind. When I used to eat he was always with me and looking at him I used to eat kinda fast enough and my leftover food was given to him and of course extra too πŸ˜…πŸ˜…. Then we started growing up one day he started barking and a woman came to our house and said Lalu bite her πŸ™„πŸ™„. Listening to her my father and his so-called brothers decided to send him away. So they took him to Barrackpore by bike and maybe the next day he came home and I was so happy 😊 that my friend came home hurry !! 

But after a week they took him to Sodepur maybe I didn't remember πŸ˜• by train and he never came back 😞😞  I was missing him πŸ˜” then what Nothing 😐😐


That year my brother was born. 2006 27 July at 12.30 pm in Biraj Mohini Matri Sadan Hospital I was born in the same hospital so my mummy thought that I would be Biraj and  my brother as Mohan but I was named Bandana which means prayer, salute, bright star, praise, and my brother was named Ramkrishna I don't think it needs any meaning 

So I was pretty happy 😊  


You can see it my happiness knows no bounds when 1st time  I took him in my lap it was heaven. Life is full of twists we don't know what will happen next moment or in the upcoming days so if you love someone speak it up and show that they are important to you they matter you need them they are the greatest thing that happened to you. It's simple man if u can't do it then what can u expect from life rather than disappointment and suffering. Life does give us chances but sometimes it won't, If you are getting it man grab it and show what you can actually do. 

I lost my brother on 9 May 2018, in Bengaluru at 11 pm maybe we Don't know the exact time but it was approx 11. I wish I could change it but I can't. life gave us 2nd chance but we can't utilize it proper manner and see what we lost a live person from that day I actually understand the value of time life and love but then when we returned to Kolkata I was so depressed that I was seeking shelter in someone else heart πŸ˜’πŸ˜’ I DON'T KNOW THAT'S something I can't express. I was in class 9 at that time and lots of people judged me for being like That means I used to talk to lots of boys mostly on fb and Bengali medium students of our school my classmates literally treated me like a slut seriously and teachers too why ??? Cause I wasn't acting normal I used to talk to boys and just because I got 9th  as I'd not given 1st term exam or maybe people were Jealous who knows  ........ 

There are some teachers whom I am ashamed to call my guru my teachers cause they Don't deserve that title. OK YOU TELL ME WHAT U CAN ACTUALLY DESERVE FROM A TEACHER WHEN HE IS INSULTING OTHER TEACHERS IN FRONT OF STUDENTS WHAT YOU CAN REALLY EXPECT FROM THEM ... Man I am great I just need to say that I'm too good if u will compare and I'm proud and vocal about it yeah you can judge me but did you walked the path wearing my shoes think about it

There are teachers whom I respected a lot till now they are in my heart ASIS SIR (OUR LIBERIAN SIR ) he always helped me a lot MANASHI MAN BENGALI TEACHER MADHUSUDHAN SIR, APARAJITA MAM SUSANTA SIR MATH TEACHER JOITA MISS BIO TEACHER KAUSHIK SIR, BAISAKHI MISS GEOGRAPHY TEACHER JANG SIR AM I forgetting someone else πŸ€”πŸ€” maybe no. They are fav and I literally respect them from the core of my ♥  They made my student life amazing seriously. I am glad that I got them as my teachers they shaped my life in a better way they helped me a lot. 

In class 10 I got 606 out of 700 and they were proud of it Someone was like Hain how did she get that. Or maybe I am the wrong one I don't know I shouldn't judge anyone but their actions made me that way. I do wanna change the school but couldn't cause of Corona πŸ™ƒπŸ™ƒ and after having exams I opened insta and fb total new account and there I got a boy named AMAN PANDEY and we talked for a month and his friend ARVIND and I got into a relationship πŸ˜…πŸ˜… bad right but he was cheating on me and I understand that and I left and when me and arv talked it felt great like we can be forever together and I told him everything about past about what type of boy I wanted everything every detail of myself cause I want it to be real I don't know WHy but I felt something which I never felt in my life time till now I never had that feeling πŸ™‚πŸ™‚ 

So I thought he would open up too and take him seriously who knows that he was joking in 1st place cause I had told him 100 times I was serious about this but then he understood later that I was serious I was real I really loved him and with all ups and downs we were together for 3 years and 9 months without touching without seeing each other in real life. Oh Man, it was so real but now we separated maybe great for both. He got his peaceful life and I got me again maybe not I still think about how can I cope with it so fast. He was great I am great too. 

Now let's embrace ourselves again, discovering ourselves again, but I don't wanna be in love nhhhh it's a waste of time, mental exhaustion, self-doubts omg lot more... IT'S BEST TO BE SINGLE AND HAPPIER CAUSE NO ONE CAN UNDERSTAND YOU BETTER THAN YOURSELF AND SOMEONE ELSE DO THEN DUDE GO GRAB THEM SHOW THEM LOVE THEM NEVER LET THEM GO. TILL THEN BEING SINGLE WOULD BE GREAT RATHER THAN KEEPING TEMPORARY THINGS IT'S BETTER TO WAIT FOR PERMANENT ONES. 


Discover yourself and understand what you like and don't. keep working on yourself to be the best for you and it's okay if it takes time it's okay if you are hurt it's okay to be a failure but what's not okay is to stick to that same thing which is hurting you leave it, not changing self be adaptable if you can't fit in a situation or thing then change it life is too limited for stuff like that. You need to understand what's wrong and what's right even if you aren't able to understand now always try to keep trying hard and be easy on self forgive self. Remember your 5 years self does they dear these if no then skip make them happy why do you wanna hide your inner child let them be free and the world will be different for you ohh come on people will think you are crazy so what are they giving you money for your expenditure no right then why do u need to care about others .......... 


BE YOURSELF BE TRUE TO YOURSELF BE KIND AND GENTLE TO SELF TREAT THEM  THE WAY THEY DESERVE TO BE TREATED WHY ALWAYS ASK SOMEONE ELSE WHEN YOU CAN BUY YOURSELF FLOWERS GIFTS 🍫 AND GIVE A SURPRISE BY TAKING A LONG DRIVE ALONE OR GOING TO YOUR FAVORITE PLACE YOU CAN DO THAT RIGHT... 

I KNOW IT'S IMPORTANT TOO TO HAVE A PARTNER BUT WHY SETTLE FOR LESS AND TEMPORARY ONES. BE THE BEST FOR SELF, YOU ARE YOU DON'T FORGET THAT. THEN ONE DAY YOU WILL GET YOUR SHIV TOO .... WHO WILL WAIT FOR YOU FOREVER WILL WORK FOR YOU HE WILL UNDERSTAND YOU AND WILL SHOW HIS TRUE SELF BUT YOU NEED TO BE HIS UMA TOO .... COMING BACK TO HIM AGAIN LOVING HIM CARING HIM. NEVER BE ASHAMED OF YOUR LIFE PARTNER FOR WHO THEY ARE KEEP PROTECTING KEEP LOVING AND FORGET ABOUT OTHERS AND SOCIETY'S NORMS AND REGULATIONS WHO CARES... AT LEAST I DON'T 😝😝 

UNTIL THEN BE YOUR PARTNER IN CRIME LOVE YOURSELF AND BE FREE ..... MAKE YOURSELF PROUD AND ENJOY LIFE. 





Thursday, May 9, 2024

ME BEING ME

 In the symphony of existence, I'll descend like a gentle rain, painting the world with the hues of renewal. Like a river, I'll meander through time's valleys, carving out my essence with each twist and turn. With the fiery passion of the sun, I'll blaze a trail of inspiration, igniting hearts with the fervor of possibility. And akin to the breeze, I'll dance through the corridors of your mind, stirring thoughts and dreams with whispers of anticipation. Embracing the ebb and flow of life, I'll unfurl like a blossom in bloom, acknowledging that even in awkwardness, there lies a beauty as delicate as a butterfly's flutter.

In the grand tapestry of existence, I'll descend like the autumn leaves, gracefully drifting with the winds of change. Like the roots of ancient trees, I'll anchor myself in the soil of experience, drawing sustenance from the depths of wisdom. With the steadfast resilience of mountains, I'll stand tall against the storms of adversity, a beacon of strength and fortitude. And akin to the gentle embrace of moonlit nights, I'll envelop your thoughts in a cloak of tranquility, guiding you through the labyrinth of uncertainty. Embracing the symphony of life's unfolding, I'll bloom like a desert flower, thriving amidst the arid landscape of challenges, knowing that even in the harshest terrain, beauty finds its home.

In the vast tapestry of existence, I find myself drifting like the seeds of a dandelion, carried by the whims of fate upon the breath of the universe. Like the intricate web spun by a spider, I weave my way through the labyrinth of life's mysteries, each thread a testament to the interconnectedness of all things. With the quiet persistence of moss clinging to ancient stones, I cling to the moments, embracing both the light and the shadows that dance across the landscape of my being.

As the seasons change and the wheel of time turns, I morph and transform, much like the caterpillar metamorphosing into the butterfly, shedding old skin to reveal the shimmering wings of possibility. Like the ever-changing surface of a lake, I ripple with the currents of emotion, reflecting the myriad hues of human experience.

In the depths of my soul, I harbor the secrets of the earth, ancient and wise as the roots of the mighty oak. I draw sustenance from the rich soil of memory, nourished by the stories of generations past and the whispers of ancestors long gone.

With the fierce determination of a wildfire raging through the wilderness, I blaze my own trail, unafraid to confront the obstacles that stand in my path. And yet, like the gentle caress of a breeze on a summer's day, I navigate life's complexities with a sense of ease and grace, surrendering to the flow of the cosmic river that carries me ever forward.

As I journey through the landscapes of my mind, I encounter both the barren deserts of doubt and the lush valleys of inspiration. Like an explorer charting uncharted territories, I venture into the unknown, guided by the stars that twinkle in the vast expanse of my imagination.

In the grand tapestry of existence, I am but a single thread, woven into the fabric of time itself. And yet, I am also the weaver, shaping my own destiny with each choice I make and each step I take along the winding path of life.



Monday, May 6, 2024

BEING IN LOVE IS NOT EASY

Hey guys hope you all are well πŸ’• I wasn't in the mood to write things past days cause i was busy with my studies and some personal issues so right now I am going to write about how I feel and what difficulties i had faced after being in love

 Well in my entire life I had fallen for one person I think he will understand if he is reading this. I grow up and I understand me, I started discovering things for me then connecting myself spiritually and preparing me for facing obstacles and making a road where other can walk too and eventually get their goals and love. It wasn't easy for me  and I will not recommend now to follow it let me just reach out then I will suggest other to follow it too. πŸ˜„πŸ˜„

 So back to the topic now I have changed alot I DON'T KNOW why people thinks that i am flirty maybe cause i treat them well πŸ€” or I really flirts. I don't think they would be able to take my arrogant aggressive side cause I am fierce when I'm mad. There are only some people  who had seen that part and  found it REALLY very dangerousπŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚. ONE SHOULD ACCEPT THE BEHAVIOR I AM PROVIDING  CAUSE I KNOW THAT'S THE BEST THING I'M PROVIDING.

 SOMETIMES LOVE IS VERY COMPLICATED TO ME AND SOMETIMES IT'S ONE THE BEST THING THAT I EVER HAS IN MY LIFE. EVEN SO I AM NOT IN LOVE WITH ANYONE (EXCEPT 1πŸ˜…) CAUSE IT'S CONFUSING SOMETIMES I REALLY DON'T GET THINGS IF I AM OPENING UP MYSELF THAN I WISH THAT THE OTHER WILL OPEN UP TOO BUT THAT'S NOT THE CASE,  SOMETIMES I FEEL BURRDEN SOMETIMES IT'S EUPHORIC SOMETIMES IT'S CRAZY SOMETIMES IT'S VERY ENTHUSIASTIC SOMETIMES IT'S ABSURD SOMETIMES IT'S PASSIONATE THAT'S ACTUALLY WHAT LOVE IS. I AM ONE OF THE MOST MOODY  PERSON YOU CAN EVER FIND AND IF ONE CAN TAKE THAT THEN I MUST NEED TO SAY that HE IS GOING TO BE MY BETTER HALF CAUSE

 NONE had able to handle it. The real me is something I am a captivating blend of emotions and traits, embodying a fascinating paradox that shapes who I am. At times, I exude an infectious energy akin to that of a crackhead, injecting playfulness and spontaneity into every interaction. My silliness is not just a trait but a defining aspect of my persona, a whimsical charm that captivates those around me. My buoyant spirit is further accentuated by moments of unwavering enthusiasm, where my optimism shines like a beacon of hope, illuminating even the bleakest of circumstances with its radiant glow. However, amidst these peaks of exuberance, there are valleys of procrastination, moments where the weight of inertia holds me back from realizing my full potential. Yet, despite these occasional setbacks, there are moments of undeniable confidence, where I boldly stride forward with unwavering belief in myself, even bordering on arrogance. It is in these moments that my demeanor may turn slightly abrasive, veering into rudeness as a defense mechanism against vulnerability. Yet, beneath this faΓ§ade lies a person who is grappling with their own complexities, someone who is simultaneously filled with self-assurance and plagued by doubt. My journey is one of self-discovery, a constant negotiation between the various facets of my personality as I navigate the tumultuous waters of life, ever-evolving, ever-changing, but always uniquely me.


In a world where self-awareness meets acceptance, I find myself navigating the intricate dance of being human. I am not without my flaws, nor do I shy away from them. Despite recognizing my imperfections, I still embrace the essence of who I am. I am capable of being both gross and bad, yet these qualities do not define me entirely. When love finds its way into my life, it consumes me wholeheartedly. There are no half-measures; my love knows no bounds. And if I dare to venture into the realm of relationships, I do so with the intention of baring my soul to another soul. Vulnerability becomes my armor, truth my shield. I seek a partner who mirrors my transparency, someone who is unafraid to reveal their true self to me. In this symbiotic exchange of authenticity, I hope to find acceptance—not just of the parts of myself I readily showcase, but of the shadows lurking within. And as we embark on this journey together, I envision a union built on the principles of reciprocity and understanding. Our connection is a delicate balance of give and take, a constant negotiation between our individual truths and our shared experiences. In the end, it is this mutual exchange of trust, honesty, and respect that lays the foundation for a relationship that is as genuine as it is enduring.

Navigating the realms of love, companionship, and self-discovery is a journey that often defies simple explanation. It's a winding path filled with twists, turns, and unexpected detours, each moment offering its own lessons and revelations. At the heart of this journey lies the quest for connection—connection with others, connection with oneself, and connection with the world at large.

For many, the desire to find a romantic partner is a driving force, a longing that often begins in childhood fairy tales and persists well into adulthood. We're raised on stories of princes and princesses, of soulmates destined to find each other against all odds. And yet, as we grow older, we come to realize that the reality of love is far more complex than the tales of our youth.

Still, the yearning remains—a quiet whisper in the depths of our hearts, urging us to seek out that elusive connection with another soul. We date, we swipe, we search for signs of compatibility in the faces of strangers, hoping that somewhere out there, our perfect match is waiting.

But what if that match never materializes? What if, despite our best efforts, we find ourselves standing alone in a sea of faces, our hand still empty, our heart still yearning? It's a sobering thought, one that can shake the foundations of our beliefs about love and companionship.

Yet, in the face of this uncertainty, there is a quiet strength that emerges—the strength of self-reliance, of self-love, and of self-discovery. It's the realization that while finding someone to share our lives with is a beautiful thing, it is not the only path to fulfillment.

I have come to understand this truth in my own journey. I hold hope for finding someone special, someone who will walk beside me, hand in hand, through the ups and downs of life. But even if that person never comes, I know that I am enough. I am enough to support myself, to love myself, and to chart my own course through life's adventures.

This self-assurance is not born out of arrogance or conceit, but rather out of a deep-seated belief in my own worth and capabilities. I am my own greatest ally, my own strongest advocate, and my own most reliable companion.

And yet, despite this fierce independence, there is a part of me that longs for companionship—for someone to share in life's joys and sorrows, for someone to laugh with, to cry with, and to build a future with. It's a desire that pulses beneath the surface, a quiet ache that reminds me of my humanity.

But even as I yearn for connection, I am mindful of the importance of choosing the right partner. I am not willing to settle for just anyone, for the sake of having someone by my side. No, I seek a relationship built on mutual respect, understanding, and support—a partnership grounded in trust, honesty, and open communication.

In this ideal partnership, both parties are equal partners, each bringing their own strengths, weaknesses, and quirks to the table. We support each other's dreams, celebrate each other's successes, and weather life's storms together, hand in hand.

But even if this ideal partnership never materializes, I am okay with that. I am okay with standing alone, knowing that I am strong enough to face whatever life throws my way. I am okay with charting my own course, forging my own path, and writing my own story.

For I am not defined by my relationship status, nor am I defined by the presence or absence of a romantic partner in my life. I am defined by the person I choose to be each and every day—the person who loves fiercely, lives boldly, and embraces life's adventures with open arms.

And so, whether I find someone to share my journey with or not, I am content. I am content knowing that I am enough, just as I am. I am content knowing that I am capable of creating a life filled with love, joy, and fulfillment, regardless of who walks beside me.

In the end, it's not about finding someone to complete me—it's about realizing that I am already whole, just as I am. And that, perhaps, is the greatest love of all.

                                ❤❤❤



Saturday, May 4, 2024

RESPECT EVERYONE LOVE EVERYBODY

 SO THE THINK IS THAT  CRUSH WILL CRUSH YOU πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚. I'm not joking it's true. 

Well all I know is that I love everybody whether it's boy whether it's girl whether it's plant whether it's dog. I didn't want it to sound like rhymes but it end up like that πŸ˜…πŸ˜…

Some people asked me once am I bi to them or to all, I love everybody irrespect of their gender cast race skin colour. I believe that we all are human and we need to love, support each other. Yeah I do support LGBT community. Why do I need to shame about it. IT'S okay if I like some girl or boy it's totally my choice. Who are u to judge me?? U never asked me whether I'm good or bad happy or sad then why are u judging me when I'm choosing my partner πŸ€” . To me ------


Supporting the LGBT community is about affirming the inherent value and dignity of every individual, regardless of their sexual orientation, gender identity, or expression. It involves advocating for equality, acceptance, and inclusion in all aspects of society, from legal rights and protections to social acceptance and cultural representation. Supporting the LGBT community means standing against discrimination, prejudice, and violence based on someone's sexual orientation or gender identity. It's about creating a world where everyone can live authentically and openly, free from fear of judgment or persecution. Embracing diversity and celebrating the uniqueness of each person enriches our communities and fosters a more compassionate and understanding society for all.


It's all about love ❤ if she can provide me love if she can create a safe space for me being there forver in bad and good highs and lows then Loving another girl is a beautiful and natural expression of human connection and affection. It's about embracing love in its purest form, regardless of gender. Every person deserves the freedom to love and be loved authentically, without fear or shame. Whether it's holding hands, sharing laughter, or building a life together, love knows no bounds. Supporting love between girls means affirming their right to happiness and fulfillment, just like any other couple. It's about celebrating the unique bond and connection they share, and standing against discrimination or prejudice that may seek to invalidate their love. Love is love, and when two girls find it in each other, it's something to cherish and celebrate.

Certainly!

Loving another girl is a deeply personal and profound experience that transcends societal norms and expectations. It's about forming a deep emotional connection, understanding, and mutual respect. When two girls fall in love, they create a sanctuary of warmth and acceptance, where they can be their true selves without inhibition or judgment. Their love is a testament to the power of authenticity and vulnerability, as they navigate life's joys and challenges hand in hand.

Supporting love between girls means championing their right to love openly and freely, without fear of discrimination or persecution. It involves creating a world where all forms of love are celebrated and respected, regardless of gender. It's about challenging outdated stereotypes and prejudices that seek to limit the expression of love based on arbitrary societal norms.

In a world often marked by division and strife, love between girls serves as a beacon of hope and resilience. It defies societal expectations and stands as a testament to the boundless capacity of the human heart. When two girls love each other, they not only enrich their own lives but also contribute to the collective tapestry of love and compassion that binds us all together.

In a society that may not always fully embrace or understand their love, girls who love each other need support, understanding, and validation. They need allies who will stand by their side and advocate for their rights and dignity. They need safe spaces where they can express their love openly without fear of discrimination or harm. They need access to resources and support networks that can provide guidance and assistance in navigating the challenges they may face.

Moreover, girls who love each other need to see positive representation of their relationships in media, literature, and society at large. They need to know that their love is valid and worthy of celebration, just like any other form of love. They need acceptance from their families, friends, and communities, allowing them to live authentically and openly without the burden of secrecy or shame.

Ultimately, what girls who love each other need most is the freedom to love and be loved on their own terms, without limitations or barriers imposed by others. They deserve the opportunity to build fulfilling and meaningful relationships based on mutual respect, trust, and affection, just like anyone else.


Knowing that someone is "the one" is a deeply personal and intuitive feeling that can't always be easily defined. However, there are some signs that may indicate a strong connection and potential for a lasting relationship:


1. **Compatibility**: You share similar values, interests, and goals in life, making it easy to connect and understand each other.


2. **Communication**: You can communicate openly and honestly with each other, discussing your thoughts, feelings, and concerns without fear of judgment.


3. **Mutual Respect**: You both respect each other's boundaries, opinions, and individuality, allowing each other to grow and flourish as individuals within the relationship.


4. **Supportive**: You feel supported and uplifted by each other, even during difficult times, knowing that you can rely on each other for encouragement and strength.


5. **Chemistry**: There's a strong emotional and physical attraction between you, creating a sense of excitement and passion in the relationship.


6. **Comfort**: You feel comfortable and at ease with each other, able to be your true selves without pretense or inhibition.


7. **Shared Vision**: You both envision a future together and are willing to work together to build a life that aligns with your shared values and aspirations.


Ultimately, knowing that someone is "the one" is about trusting your instincts and feelings, while also being mindful of the dynamics and compatibility within the relationship. It's a journey of discovery and growth, where both partners continuously invest in each other's happiness and well-being.


That's all for today though let's meet up soon 😊😊




JOURNEY OF SELF DISCOVERY


In the mirror's reflection, a soul does gaze,

In search of truth, through life's winding maze.

Mona, oh Mona, with spirit so true,

In the depths of your being, you find the you.


With every laugh, with every tear,

You learn and grow, year after year.

In the silence of night, in the chaos of day,

You find your rhythm, in your own special way.


Through highs and lows, through joy and strife,

You navigate the currents of this dance called life.

In your dreams, in your fears,

You find strength within, to face the years.


So here's to Mona, a shining star,

In the tapestry of life, you've come so far.

Embrace yourself, with love and grace,

For in your own story, you find your place.




Saturday, April 27, 2024

A SMALL REMINDER TO SELF


Dearest You,

As I write this letter, I can only imagine where you are in life's journey. Are you facing new challenges, celebrating triumphs, or simply navigating the ordinary yet beautiful course of existence? Wherever you are, I want you to know this: I am here for you, always.

This letter serves as a timeless capsule, a reminder of the essence of who you are and the values you hold dear. It's a warm embrace from your past self, a gentle nudge to keep moving forward on your unique path.

Reflecting on the Past

Take a moment to cast your mind back to the moments that shaped you. Remember the laughter that filled your heart, the tears that cleansed your soul, and the experiences that made you who you are today. Recall the times you stumbled and fell, for it is from those moments that you rose with newfound strength and resilience.

Think about the dreams you once harbored, the aspirations that ignited a fire within you. Have they evolved over time? Perhaps new passions have emerged, or maybe your goals have refined and sharpened. Embrace this journey of self-discovery, for it's a testament to your growth.

Treasuring the Present

Now, set your sights on the present moment. Savor the simple joys that surround you, the warmth of the sun on your skin, the comforting presence of loved ones, the beauty of nature's wonders. Don't take these blessings for granted, for they are the very essence of a fulfilling life.

Acknowledge the challenges you face, for they are inevitable. But remember, you are stronger than you think. You possess the fortitude to overcome obstacles and the wisdom to navigate through difficult times. Trust your instincts, and never lose sight of your inner strength.

Embracing the Future

As you peer into the horizon, the future may seem vast and uncertain. But hold fast to the belief in your own potential. You are capable of achieving great things, and your journey will be filled with exciting opportunities and experiences waiting to be unraveled.

Don't be afraid to step outside your comfort zone and embrace new adventures. Let curiosity be your guide, and chase your dreams with unwavering determination. Remember, failures are not roadblocks; they are stepping stones to success. Learn from your mistakes, and keep moving forward with a relentless spirit.

A Promise of Self-Love

Throughout your life's journey, never forget the importance of self-love. You are worthy of love and happiness, just as you are. Embrace your flaws and imperfections, for they make you uniquely you. Treat yourself with kindness and compassion, and celebrate your victories, both big and small.

Nourish your mind, body, and soul. Pursue activities that bring you joy and a sense of fulfillment. Surround yourself with positive and supportive people who uplift and inspire you. Remember, you are not alone on this journey.

A Final Note of Encouragement

Dearest you, as you traverse the landscapes of life, know that I am here for you, always. I will celebrate your triumphs and offer solace during times of hardship. I will be your confidante, your cheerleader, and your unwavering source of support.

Above all, never lose sight of the light that shines within you. Believe in yourself, chase your dreams with passion, and embrace the beautiful journey that life has to offer.

With all my love,

Your Past Self




Thursday, April 25, 2024

THE WAY I LOVED YOU




The way I loved You 

Soo I know there are lots of problems between us whether it's caste whether it's distance whether it's mentality because we think differently.

 Why do u wanna judge yourself or your worth by listening what others telling to u ?? Either proof them wrong or just Don’t take it to your brain and heart You are unique. Everyone is having flaws rather to think it as scar make it beautiful embrace yourself show who you are what you can do not to others but to self .

There are lots of people who do cares for you, rather thinking of them if u choose thinking about people who hurt or left u in misery then u will get pain disappointment suffering. Every person has a past so what accept it and walk to the future which is always a mystery but be in present put all your efforts in present. Be happy with what u have now if u keep wishing about things which are not yours then it will create unstability. 

Life is beautiful only when u will able to live in present oh come no need to think about future but one should have a structure about means I want this I want that only once just think about it work now and get them and most important is to be happy. Happy with yourself happy with people u have happy with work u do There is always a place for betterment, we are like sculptor we got hands we got legs we got brain we got heart with this we can make life easier and happier we can change ourself to be better or to be better for our close ones. 

 I want you to be yourself to know your worth Describe yourself in your own terms why to take other people's opinion It's not like I don't accept you I dooo. But sometimes something crazy come up to my mind and I start saying those things to u. That time I just want support from u assurance love from u. That's it I do love you alot More than one can ever imagine Cause I do. 

 No matter what happens in life I will always be there for you and with you Forever No matter how much things hurts I will always be there with your side I will protect you I will care you I will there for u in your darkness IN every moment .

Seriously I know you are working there are lots of things you are going through you too I understand And keep that in mind I will wait for you forever You take your time build your career support yourself support your parents but in the end plzz come to me plzz don't forget that I'm always here for u I know that you will do the best to provide best and I will do the same thing to provide us the best He means the world to me, more than words can express.


 From the moment I met him, I knew there was something special about him, something that drew me in and made me feel whole. He's not just a partner to me; he's my confidant, my rock, my everything. I love him to the moon and back, and I will always be there for him, no matter what. In a world where people come and go, he's the one constant in my life, the one person I can always rely on. I want him to know that he can always count on me, that I will always be there to hold him tight and protect him from whatever life throws our way. I want him to know that he can take refuge in me, that I will always be his safe haven in a stormy sea. And I want him to know that I will always protect, love, care for, and respect him with all my heart. Sure, I'll annoy him at times, we all do, but I also want him to know that I'll always be there to support him, especially during his tough days. 

And I understand that there will be times when I'll need his extra love and patience, when my mood swings might be more pronounced. But through it all, I want him to know that my love for him will never waver. Marriage isn't the be-all and end-all for me. What matters most is that we're together, under the same roof, making our dreams come true. Whether we're officially married or not doesn't change how I feel about him. I just want to spend the rest of my life with him, building a future together, creating memories, and facing whatever challenges come our way, hand in hand. He's not just my partner; he's my best friend, my soulmate, the one person who truly understands me. And I will cherish him for as long as I live, loving him with every fiber of my being, till the end of time. And when I say "he" here, I mean you. You're the one I'm talking about, the one who means everything to me.



 Hey, I hope you know that it's perfectly okay if we don't talk for a few days. I truly believe that we'll reconnect soon, and that assurance brings me a sense of peace. But there are moments, unexpected and sudden, when I find myself consumed by strange thoughts. It's during those times that I crave your presence, your comforting words, to anchor me and envelop me in a sense of warmth and safety, even though we may be miles apart. Your words have this incredible power to make me feel like I'm in your arms, protected and cherished. I want you to understand that even though we're not physically together, your words have a way of reaching into my heart and soothing my soul.


 Sometimes, life gets hectic, and our conversations may become less frequent, but please know that my love for you remains unwavering. No matter what happens, no matter where life takes us, I will always love you. In those moments of silence, when doubts or insecurities creep in, I find solace in the memories we've created together, in the bond that we share. Your presence in my life has brought me more joy and happiness than I ever thought possible. You've been my rock, my anchor, guiding me through the rough seas of life with your unwavering support and love. 


I know that sometimes I may seem distant or preoccupied, but please know that you are always on my mind, in my thoughts, and in my heart. Every word you speak, every message you send, is like a lifeline, pulling me back to shore and reminding me of the incredible love we share. And even though we may face challenges or obstacles along the way, I want you to know that I am committed to us, to our relationship, and to loving you with all that I am. No matter what trials we encounter, no matter what hardships we face, my love for you will remain steadfast and true. So, my dear, if there are days when we don't talk as much as we used to, please remember that it's not a reflection of my love for you.


 It's simply a reminder that life can sometimes get in the way, but through it all, you can count on me to be here, loving you always, no matter what happens. And just as I find comfort in your presence and your words, I want you to know that it's okay if you need space too. If there are moments when you feel overwhelmed or distant, remember that I'm here, holding space for you, ready to offer you the same love and support that you've always shown me. Our relationship is built on mutual understanding and respect, and that means respecting each other's need for space and time apart. But no matter how far apart we may be, know that my love for you remains constant and unwavering. So, take all the time you need, my dear. Whether it's a day, a week, or longer, just know that I'll be here, waiting for you with open arms and an open heart. Because our love is strong enough to withstand any distance or time apart, and I will always be here, loving you, no matter what. In response to what you said yesterday about us not being together in the future, I want to talk about it a bit more and let you know how I feel.


 The idea of us not being together down the road is pretty tough for me to wrap my head around. I mean, you've become such a big part of my life, you know? Your presence brings me so much happiness, and the thought of not having that in the future is hard to think about. Life can be unpredictable, and we both have our own dreams and plans to chase. It's possible that our paths might not line up perfectly, and that's something we've got to face. But even with that uncertainty, I want you to know that my love for you is as strong as ever. Every moment we've spent together, every laugh, every hug—it's all made a big impact on me. You've been there for me in good times and bad, and that means everything to me. So, when you talk about the future, I get it. It's a bit scary to think about. But here's what I believe: no matter what happens, our love is something special. It's strong enough to get us through whatever life throws our way. So, let's cherish the time we have together and see where life takes us. And no matter what the future holds, just know that you'll always have a special place in my heart. 


If we don't end up being together in the future, it's going to be tough, no doubt about it. I mean, imagining a life without you by my side is a pretty scary thought. You've become such a big part of my world, and the idea of not having you in it is hard to swallow. But hey, life is full of twists and turns, right? Sometimes things don't work out the way we hoped or planned, and that's just the reality of it. It doesn't mean that what we had wasn't special or meaningful—it just means that life had different plans for us. If we do end up going our separate ways, I want you to know that I'll always treasure the time we spent together. The memories we made, the laughs we shared, the love we felt—it's all going to be a part of me forever. And who knows? Maybe our paths will cross again someday, in ways we never expected. Or maybe we'll both find happiness and fulfillment in other ways, with other people. Whatever the future holds, I want you to know that I'll always be grateful for the love we shared and the impact you've had on my life. So, if we don't end up being together in the future, I'll be okay. It'll hurt, for sure, but I'll find a way to move forward. And I hope you do too. Because at the end of the day, all I want is for you to be happy, whether that's with me or without me. 



But let me tell you something—I can't imagine my life without you in it. The thought of being with someone else just doesn't feel right. You've become such an essential part of who I am, and the idea of not having you by my side is almost unbearable. So, believe me when I say that I'm going to do everything in my power to make sure we end up together. I refuse to let anything stand in the way of our love. Sure, we may annoy each other sometimes (let's be real, it's bound to happen), but that's all part of the deal, right? And through it all, my love for you will only grow stronger with each passing day. I'm not giving up on us, not now, not ever. I'm determined to find a way for us to be together, to annoy each other endlessly, and to love each other fiercely for the rest of our days. Because when you find someone as special as you, someone who makes your heart feel like it's found its home, you hold onto them with everything you've got. And that's exactly what I plan to do. 


Of course, I can't deny that you've made a mistake by choosing me. I come with my fair share of flaws. I'm not always the easiest person to love, and I have a tendency to be hard to forget. I love with all my heart, and sometimes that means I love too fiercely, too intensely. I'll admit, I can be a handful at times, and I'm sure I'll break you down every now and then. But here's the thing: I'll also make you feel alive in ways you never thought possible. I'll fill your life with passion, excitement, and love that knows no bounds. Yes, I may have my rough edges, but I promise you, underneath it all, there's a heart that beats for you and you alone. So, while I may not be the easiest choice, and while I may come with my fair share of challenges, I believe that together, we can overcome anything. Because at the end of the day, what we have is worth fighting for. And I'm willing to fight tooth and nail to make sure we end up together, despite the odds stacked against us. 


How could you even entertain the thought of me leaving you? Seriously, think about it. I haven't even laid a finger on you, haven't pressed my lips against yours, haven't left a single mark on your skin. So, why in the world would I walk away now? It just doesn't add up. The truth is, I'm here to stay. I'm not going anywhere, not now, not ever. You've become such a big part of my life, and the idea of not having you in it is just unfathomable. I mean, sure, we may drive each other crazy sometimes, but that's all part of the fun, right? And let's talk about love for a moment. Yeah, we're definitely going to make lots of it, in more ways than one. But beyond the physical stuff, I'm talking about the kind of love that runs deep, that stands the test of time. The kind of love that keeps us coming back to each other, no matter what life throws our way. So, rest assured, my dear. I'm not going anywhere. You're stuck with me, whether you like it or not. And honestly, I wouldn't have it any other way. You're the one I want to annoy, to disturb, to love with all my heart. And together, we'll create a lifetime of memories that we'll cherish forever. 


About your safety, and it's something that I can't help but worry about when you're not with me. You see, when you don't let me know where you're going or when you'll be back, it leaves me feeling anxious and unsettled. It's not that I'm trying to control you or invade your privacy. It's just that I care about you deeply, and knowing that you're safe and sound is incredibly important to me. When you keep me in the loop about your plans, it helps ease my mind and allows me to focus on other things without constantly wondering where you are or if you're okay. I understand that you value your independence and that you may not always see the need to keep me updated on your whereabouts. But please understand that my concern comes from a place of love and genuine care for your well-being. In today's world, where anything can happen at any moment, it's more important than ever to look out for each other and to take precautions to ensure our safety. And part of that means communicating openly and honestly about our plans and whereabouts, especially when we're apart. So, please, don't see it as me trying to restrict your freedom or limit your autonomy. Instead, see it as me looking out for you, wanting nothing more than for you to return home safely each and every time you step out the door. I love you, and that's why I'm asking you to keep me in the loop about your plans. Not because I want to control you, but because I want to protect you and keep you safe. So, please, indulge me in this small request, and let's continue to look out for each other as we navigate this crazy world together.

Tuesday, February 27, 2024

Sometimes love hurts

I don't know why it hurts I just wanna be yours and is it crime to love you? I don't think so and even it is I will love you for my thousand lives. No matter how much it's hurts I will love you endlessly. How could I not your are so precious to me. All I want is to be with you is to cherish all the moments we are creating but I don't know why I'm being like this. But believe me I say everything to u whatever is coming up in my mind cause for me u are important. When I am asking things to you that means your opinions matters alot to me I don't even know why I am saying all this but I want to let you know about this. I really want you to be my everything and I believe that to but do you think or believe that u are my everything cause that's matter to me. I just want to spend the rest of my life with you. Is it wrong ?? Then why do people love just for now for a limited time ?? I made you my beginning my middle my end and it's true that I never loved anyone so seriously. My love for you is generating from core of my heart and I can't stop it. No matter how much I get hurts or no matter how much we fight or no matter how much the distance bet. Us is. I love you I love you the most. It's true. I'm trying so freaking hard for us u can't even imagine. This distance between us I don't like it I want to be with you not for some days months or year but foreve. Everyday I'm trying my best to minimize this dist everyday I'm walking through this road just to be with you. Sometimes the road is smooth sometimes it's rough sometimes I'm getting shade and sometimes it's bare land but still I am walking doing my things all I should just to reach you. Sometimes I just want to leave everything u mummy bholebaba studies everyone and go somewhere where I will be free total free but then I realize no it won't be good for anyone why do I need to leave. Leaving is sign of weakness maybe sometimes leaving is best one can do just to maintain their own well-being but I can't cause for me you and my parents are important. my career is important too cause it's just not my career rather lakhs of people's life is attached from it. I may fail for 100 times but believe me I will never lose hope I will stand stronger learning from my mistakes and my comeback will be so so so so incredible that past present and future will remember me for the way I'm. I'm not joking I'm serious. I'm dreaming everyday and working for it every single sec.

Saturday, November 18, 2023

REMOVING PEOPLE FROM LIFE

HEY GUYS I HOPE YOU ALL ARE DOING GREAT. SO today I want to talk about removing people from our life like what is that why you are doing it how to do it what are the consequences you or the other one can face. So without wasting our time let's indulge into the topic. [DISCLAIMER:- As you all know EVERYONE HAS DIFFERENT OPINIONSONS AND MAYBE SOME WILL LIKE IT SOME WILL CRITICISE IT SO u might not like my point of views and that’s totally fine but that doesn’t mean that I'm wrong] ACTUALLY I'm writing on this topic cause today I see some quotes in someone's dp and it's written as "GOD remove people cause he heard conversations that u didn't hear" Somewhere in me I felt like it's for me o like yeah it's indicating me Why ?? Here is a whole story and I don't wanna share it here and it was done by one of my closest friend sorry it doesn't suits here someone special yeah it pretty appropriate. SO WHAT IS ACTUALLY REMOVING PEOPLE FROM LIFE MEANS?? Maybe it's removing him forever or it might means that u aren't ready for it. Fine it's a rude behavior I understand but sometimes it's necessary for your own wellbeing. IS IT REALLY MEANS THAT YOU HATE THAT PERSON AND DON'T WANNA TALK TO THEM OR YOU REALLY DON'T GET THE CHEMISTRY BETWEEN BOTH OR JUST DON'T WANT TO HURT EACH OTHERS FEELINGS,SOMETIMES SOCIAL FAMILY SELF PROBLEMS HITS REASON CAN BE ANYTHING LOT OF THEM ARE NOT EVEN MENTIONED HERE. IT'S NOT ALWAYS THAT WHATEVER YOU ARE DOING JUST FOR YOU RATHER IT'S GOOD FOR BOTH. LET ME TELL YOU A STORY WHERE 2 PEOPLE FALL FOR EACH OTHER BUT THE GIRL DON'T WANTED TO CONTINUE ONE DAY A BOY TEXTED A GIRL SAYING HI how are you and all so this is how things started and after talking to 1 week she feel like yeah this boy has good sense of humor and personality and few days later she started liking him both continued talking after few weeks girl told to boy that she liked him and boy said no this is not possible and told he is having exam next week and blocked her. She thought Nothing rather waited for him and when his result came he texted her in that he passed the exam and unblocked her and said that he wouldn't had come if he had failed the exam she was pretty astonished to hear this after that talking continued and when girl was having her time boy was be like hey why are u ignoring me well she was not rather she was working on her and she do want time for her studies and thinks continued. But girl felt like everything is happening fast like bullet train cause boy was calling her wife (i don't know why??) Well she told him about this but boy replied that he had done it slow. Girl was feeling Nothing rather felt like she was with a young child who doesn't no how to build a relation. MAYBE ACC TO GUY SHE WAS EGOISTIC DOESN'T DESERVE HIS PRECIOUS TIME OR SHE WAS JUST DOING TIMEPASS [ONE SHOULDN'T THINK THESE TYPES OF THINGS IF YOU CAN'T SOLVE THE OTHER ONES PROBLEMS] AND ONE DAY HE ASKED SOMETHING HE SHOULDN'T ASK CONTINUOUSLY even when she told no to it after that she blocked him SO WHAT DO YOU THINK GUYS WHO WAS WRONG IT CAN HAPPEN WITH ANYONE BOY OR GIRL DOESN'T MATTER THOUGH ANYONE CAN SUFFER FROM THIS. Never ever come to an conclusion where you don't know about the other person situation and their intention if you still do then you don't deserve that person well I should not say this too cause I don't know the actual scenario One shouldn't judge other by their perspective of views cause it's not you who wear their shoes it's them only why they are doing it either wear it 1st and walk understand what's the actual cause and then comment or just walk in your own shoe without wasting your's and other's time

Wednesday, November 8, 2023

what's coming next

HELLO EVERYONE HOPE U ALL ARE DOING GREAT WELL I WAS SUPER BUSY lately. My exams are knocking and I'm not getting time to complete my blogs actually I had already started writing them 1. ARE U FEELING BORED ? 2. FALLING IN LOVE IS NOT EASY 3. REMOVING PEOPLE FROM LIFE I WILL TRY MY LEVEL BEST TO COMPLETE ALL THIS 3 IN THIS MONTH ACTUALLY alot of things happened good bad both maybe will share a glimpse in my upcoming blogs THANK YOU

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  I was a kid looking for love, full of hope inside But time was never kind to me, my heart grew cold as ice All out of luck, thought I was ...