BEING IN LOVE IS NOT EASY

Hey guys hope you all are well 💕 I wasn't in the mood to write things past days cause i was busy with my studies and some personal issues so right now I am going to write about how I feel and what difficulties i had faced after being in love

 Well in my entire life I had fallen for one person I think he will understand if he is reading this. I grow up and I understand me, I started discovering things for me then connecting myself spiritually and preparing me for facing obstacles and making a road where other can walk too and eventually get their goals and love. It wasn't easy for me  and I will not recommend now to follow it let me just reach out then I will suggest other to follow it too. 😄😄

 So back to the topic now I have changed alot I DON'T KNOW why people thinks that i am flirty maybe cause i treat them well 🤔 or I really flirts. I don't think they would be able to take my arrogant aggressive side cause I am fierce when I'm mad. There are only some people  who had seen that part and  found it REALLY very dangerous😂😂. ONE SHOULD ACCEPT THE BEHAVIOR I AM PROVIDING  CAUSE I KNOW THAT'S THE BEST THING I'M PROVIDING.

 SOMETIMES LOVE IS VERY COMPLICATED TO ME AND SOMETIMES IT'S ONE THE BEST THING THAT I EVER HAS IN MY LIFE. EVEN SO I AM NOT IN LOVE WITH ANYONE (EXCEPT 1😅) CAUSE IT'S CONFUSING SOMETIMES I REALLY DON'T GET THINGS IF I AM OPENING UP MYSELF THAN I WISH THAT THE OTHER WILL OPEN UP TOO BUT THAT'S NOT THE CASE,  SOMETIMES I FEEL BURRDEN SOMETIMES IT'S EUPHORIC SOMETIMES IT'S CRAZY SOMETIMES IT'S VERY ENTHUSIASTIC SOMETIMES IT'S ABSURD SOMETIMES IT'S PASSIONATE THAT'S ACTUALLY WHAT LOVE IS. I AM ONE OF THE MOST MOODY  PERSON YOU CAN EVER FIND AND IF ONE CAN TAKE THAT THEN I MUST NEED TO SAY that HE IS GOING TO BE MY BETTER HALF CAUSE

 NONE had able to handle it. The real me is something I am a captivating blend of emotions and traits, embodying a fascinating paradox that shapes who I am. At times, I exude an infectious energy akin to that of a crackhead, injecting playfulness and spontaneity into every interaction. My silliness is not just a trait but a defining aspect of my persona, a whimsical charm that captivates those around me. My buoyant spirit is further accentuated by moments of unwavering enthusiasm, where my optimism shines like a beacon of hope, illuminating even the bleakest of circumstances with its radiant glow. However, amidst these peaks of exuberance, there are valleys of procrastination, moments where the weight of inertia holds me back from realizing my full potential. Yet, despite these occasional setbacks, there are moments of undeniable confidence, where I boldly stride forward with unwavering belief in myself, even bordering on arrogance. It is in these moments that my demeanor may turn slightly abrasive, veering into rudeness as a defense mechanism against vulnerability. Yet, beneath this façade lies a person who is grappling with their own complexities, someone who is simultaneously filled with self-assurance and plagued by doubt. My journey is one of self-discovery, a constant negotiation between the various facets of my personality as I navigate the tumultuous waters of life, ever-evolving, ever-changing, but always uniquely me.

In a world where self-awareness meets acceptance, I find myself navigating the intricate dance of being human. I am not without my flaws, nor do I shy away from them. Despite recognizing my imperfections, I still embrace the essence of who I am. I am capable of being both gross and bad, yet these qualities do not define me entirely. When love finds its way into my life, it consumes me wholeheartedly. There are no half-measures; my love knows no bounds. And if I dare to venture into the realm of relationships, I do so with the intention of baring my soul to another soul. Vulnerability becomes my armor, truth my shield. I seek a partner who mirrors my transparency, someone who is unafraid to reveal their true self to me. In this symbiotic exchange of authenticity, I hope to find acceptance—not just of the parts of myself I readily showcase, but of the shadows lurking within. And as we embark on this journey together, I envision a union built on the principles of reciprocity and understanding. Our connection is a delicate balance of give and take, a constant negotiation between our individual truths and our shared experiences. In the end, it is this mutual exchange of trust, honesty, and respect that lays the foundation for a relationship that is as genuine as it is enduring.

Navigating the realms of love, companionship, and self-discovery is a journey that often defies simple explanation. It's a winding path filled with twists, turns, and unexpected detours, each moment offering its own lessons and revelations. At the heart of this journey lies the quest for connection—connection with others, connection with oneself, and connection with the world at large.

For many, the desire to find a romantic partner is a driving force, a longing that often begins in childhood fairy tales and persists well into adulthood. We're raised on stories of princes and princesses, of soulmates destined to find each other against all odds. And yet, as we grow older, we come to realize that the reality of love is far more complex than the tales of our youth.

Still, the yearning remains—a quiet whisper in the depths of our hearts, urging us to seek out that elusive connection with another soul. We date, we swipe, we search for signs of compatibility in the faces of strangers, hoping that somewhere out there, our perfect match is waiting.

But what if that match never materializes? What if, despite our best efforts, we find ourselves standing alone in a sea of faces, our hand still empty, our heart still yearning? It's a sobering thought, one that can shake the foundations of our beliefs about love and companionship.

Yet, in the face of this uncertainty, there is a quiet strength that emerges—the strength of self-reliance, of self-love, and of self-discovery. It's the realization that while finding someone to share our lives with is a beautiful thing, it is not the only path to fulfillment.

I have come to understand this truth in my own journey. I hold hope for finding someone special, someone who will walk beside me, hand in hand, through the ups and downs of life. But even if that person never comes, I know that I am enough. I am enough to support myself, to love myself, and to chart my own course through life's adventures.

This self-assurance is not born out of arrogance or conceit, but rather out of a deep-seated belief in my own worth and capabilities. I am my own greatest ally, my own strongest advocate, and my own most reliable companion.

And yet, despite this fierce independence, there is a part of me that longs for companionship—for someone to share in life's joys and sorrows, for someone to laugh with, to cry with, and to build a future with. It's a desire that pulses beneath the surface, a quiet ache that reminds me of my humanity.

But even as I yearn for connection, I am mindful of the importance of choosing the right partner. I am not willing to settle for just anyone, for the sake of having someone by my side. No, I seek a relationship built on mutual respect, understanding, and support—a partnership grounded in trust, honesty, and open communication.

In this ideal partnership, both parties are equal partners, each bringing their own strengths, weaknesses, and quirks to the table. We support each other's dreams, celebrate each other's successes, and weather life's storms together, hand in hand.

But even if this ideal partnership never materializes, I am okay with that. I am okay with standing alone, knowing that I am strong enough to face whatever life throws my way. I am okay with charting my own course, forging my own path, and writing my own story.

For I am not defined by my relationship status, nor am I defined by the presence or absence of a romantic partner in my life. I am defined by the person I choose to be each and every day—the person who loves fiercely, lives boldly, and embraces life's adventures with open arms.

And so, whether I find someone to share my journey with or not, I am content. I am content knowing that I am enough, just as I am. I am content knowing that I am capable of creating a life filled with love, joy, and fulfillment, regardless of who walks beside me.

In the end, it's not about finding someone to complete me—it's about realizing that I am already whole, just as I am. And that, perhaps, is the greatest love of all.

                                ❤❤❤