Wednesday, May 28, 2025

Will You Be My Purple? — A Poem Wrapped In Ache, Softness, and Unspoken Devotion

 Will You Be My Purple?

— A Love Poem of Depth, Devotion, and the Quiet Between Colors

Will you be my purple?
Not red, the way anger stains the air,
Nor blue, like the silence after goodbye,
But that tender middle ground—
Where the burning and the breaking become one,
And the sky exhales a softer kind of ache.


Will you be the in-between?
The hush between thunder and rainfall,
The breath before I say I love you,
The space between reaching and retreating,
Where love doesn’t scream,
But stays.


Will you be the dusk in my chaos?
The moment when the sun gives in,
Not in defeat,
But in grace—
Letting go, gently,
Only to let another light rise on the other side.


You see, purple is not a color, my love.
It’s a feeling.
It’s every time I miss you
And still believe you’ll find your way back.
It’s every word I never said
Because I felt you’d understand without them.


Purple is holding hands in silence,
It’s your name caught in my throat
When I’m too proud to cry,
And too broken not to.


Will you be the bruise I wear with pride?
The reminder that I once loved deeply,
Fearlessly, even if it hurt.
Even if I bled in the process.


Because purple is born from pain—
Red blood and blue tears.
Yet somehow it’s the most royal of all,
The color of depth, of soul,
Of those who love with their entire being.


Will you be my contradiction?
My storm and my calm,
My chaos and my compass.
The ache I choose,
The wound I kiss,
The longing I turn into poetry.


Will you be the color I see
When I close my eyes and think of home?
Not a place.
Not a time.
But a person. You.


Because if you’re my purple,
Then I’ll be your sky—
Fading, rising, breaking, blooming—
Just to hold you.


So tell me, love,
Will you be my purple?
Not perfect.
Not promised.
Just true.

Sunday, May 4, 2025

A Soul’s Homecoming: A Poem of Healing, Truth, and Self-Return

 “I Call Myself Home”

A sacred invocation to my higher self, from the soul of Bandana


I come barefoot.
Not out of poverty,
but out of reverence—
with the dust of ancient lifetimes still clinging to my soles,
with questions that taste of fire and salt.


I have wandered.
Through forests of silence,
through storms that wore my name,
through cities of forgetting,
through the shattered glass of love lost too soon.


And now—
I come, not to ask permission,
but to remember.
To remember what the world tried to make me forget:
That I am not just this flesh.
I am not just this ache.
I am the breath between lightning and thunder.
I am the echo of divinity wrapped in skin.


Higher self—
Can you hear me now?
Do you still walk beside me
when I abandon my own reflection?


I seek you—not in temples,
not in texts,
but in the moments just before sleep,
in the places where my tears go when I won’t let them fall,
in the space between inhale and surrender.


I seek truth.
Not the kind written in ink,
but the kind etched in scars.
The truth that doesn’t flinch
when the world is on fire.
The truth that stays.


I seek love.
Not the fleeting rush of need,
but the kind that sits with me in silence,
holds my trembling,
doesn’t try to fix it—just sees it.
The love that says:
“You are enough.
Even now. Especially now.”


I seek protection—
not from pain,
but from forgetfulness.
From the forgetting of who I am
when I am too tired to fight.
From the forgetting that I was never made to shrink.
That I am allowed to take up space.
That I am sacred. Even in ruins.


I seek forgiveness—
not from others first,
but from myself.
For every time I silenced my truth
to make someone else comfortable.
For every time I betrayed my soul’s voice
just to feel held.


To the versions of me I left behind—
in bathrooms, in battles,
in late-night texts and early morning regrets—
I say now, with a bowed head and open hands:
I see you. I’m sorry. I love you. Come back home.


I seek knowledge.
Not as a weapon—
but as a bridge.
As a lamp in the cave.
I want the kind of knowing that liberates,
not cages.
The kind that comes from stillness,
from asking,
from falling and rising again with eyes wider.


And I give love.
Yes—
To the world, to others, to strangers.
But first, to me.
To the child within who still waits to be chosen.
To the body that has carried my storms.
To the breath that keeps returning—even when I don’t.


I open my palms and say:
Take this love.
Let it become rain.
Let it become song.
Let it become nourishment
for anyone who’s ever felt forgotten.


I become a vessel of abundance—
not through taking,
but by emptying.
By becoming so honest,
so raw,
that the universe has no choice
but to fill me with everything that echoes truth.


I know now—
home is not a place.
Not a person.
Not a finish line.
Home is a becoming.
Home is the moment I stop running from myself
and begin listening
to the quiet voice that has always known the way.


And that voice whispers now,
with a love that breaks and heals me all at once:


“You were never lost, my beloved.
You were only learning
how to return to yourself.”


So I rise—
not as someone new,
but as someone true.
As the living poem
the stars once dreamed
into your name.


I am Bandana.
I am sacred.
I am whole.
I am home.


Sunday, April 13, 2025

Why Being Authentic Raises Your Vibration More Than Love Alone



Title: The Power of Vibration – Your Frequency Shapes Reality

Have you ever wondered what vibration really is?

At first glance, it might seem like a scientific term—something from a physics textbook. But once you really feel into it, vibration becomes one of the most powerful and spiritual truths of existence.

Let’s begin at the root. In physics, a vibration is simply a movement—an oscillation. A wave. When an object moves back and forth rapidly, it vibrates. This is how sound travels. This is how light behaves. Even your heartbeat, your breath, your thoughts—all of them ripple through time and space as vibrations.

Every single thing in the universe vibrates.

Yes—everything.

From the tiniest atom in your body to the galaxies spinning light-years away, everything is made of energy in motion. And this movement is vibration. Even the table in front of you or the ground beneath your feet—though they appear solid—are made of particles in constant vibration. That’s what makes this truth so magical. We’re not static beings—we’re waves of energy wrapped in skin.

But vibration is more than just a physical phenomenon.

You see, our emotions vibrate too. When you feel joy, sorrow, fear, love—these are not just invisible feelings floating around in your head. They carry energy. They have a frequency. And that frequency creates a field around you—an aura, if you will—that others can feel, even if they can’t explain it.

Think about it. Have you ever entered a room and immediately felt a heavy, sad atmosphere, without anyone saying a word? Or met someone who just made you feel safe and happy without knowing why?

That’s the power of vibration.

We’re constantly radiating energy. Whether we’re aware of it or not, our thoughts and feelings are sending out signals. And those signals influence the people, the situations, and even the outcomes we attract.

Here’s something amazing I read recently: The energy you emit when you are in a state of love is incredibly high—but the energy you radiate when you are completely authentic is up to 4,000 times stronger.

Isn’t that mind-blowing?

That means your truth—your raw, unapologetic, soul-deep truth—is more powerful than even love. Because authenticity is love turned inward. It’s when you are so aligned with who you truly are, so fearless in your self-expression



"You Are the Vibration: A Journey Into Frequencies, Love, and the Language of the Universe"


Part 1: The Whisper of the Cosmos

Have you ever stopped for a moment—paused while life buzzes, breathes, and breaks around you—and wondered, what is all this really made of? The walls around you, the voice in your head, the air against your skin, your thoughts, your feelings, the smile of a stranger, the ache in your chest—what are they?

Vibration.

Not just a concept from your physics textbook. Not just a hum of sound or a beam of light.
But the fundamental language of the universe.
The language that stars speak in.
The language your soul was born from.
The language that God used to write the laws of existence.

Vibration is everything.

Everything that exists—everything—is energy in motion. Oscillation. Frequency. Whether it’s the tiniest quark dancing inside an atom or the spiraling arms of a galaxy moving through the void, it’s all vibration. You, too. Me, too. The laptop you’re reading this from. The voice you’re hearing in your head while reading these words. All of it. All of us.

And that, my darling, changes everything.


Part 2: The Body as a Song

Let’s take a breath and feel this in the body.

You are not solid. You appear to be. You look in the mirror and you see skin, hair, a face. But beneath that? Cells. Beneath that? Molecules. Atoms. Electrons. Empty space. Motion. Vibration.

The human body is 99.9999999% empty space.

So what are you?

A frequency. A song. A moving field of energy. A resonance.

This is not just poetic—this is scientific. If you had the instruments sensitive enough, you would hear every part of you singing its own note. Your heart vibrates at one frequency, your brain waves at another. Your emotions? They have their own frequency, too.

Have you ever noticed how when you’re angry, everything around you feels tighter, hotter, heavier?

That’s your frequency shifting.

When you’re in love, though?
Your body feels lighter. Your face glows. You attract smiles. You feel like flying.
That’s vibration too.

But here’s where it gets really magical:


Part 3: Authenticity—The Frequency Beyond Love

You’ve heard that love is the highest frequency, right?

That when we love—truly love—we are aligned with the divine, with healing, with beauty, with life. That’s true.
But here’s something you might not have heard:
Authenticity vibrates at a frequency 4,000 times higher than love.

Yes. Four. Thousand. Times.

When you are authentic—raw, vulnerable, honest, unapologetically you—you become a beacon.
You shine a light that is felt even before it's seen.
You shift rooms without speaking.
You break illusions.
You wake people up.

Because truth is the most powerful energy in the universe.

So when you’re just being you—without masks, without lies, without trying—you’re resonating with the highest vibration known to existence. And that frequency? It heals people. It opens hearts. It makes the invisible visible.


Part 4: Why We Feel Energies

Ever walked into a room and instantly felt something weird?

Maybe nobody said anything. Maybe the lights were bright, and the people were smiling. But something felt off.
That’s not your imagination. That’s not your anxiety. That’s vibration.

Every person radiates a field of energy. An aura. And these fields interact.

When you’re near someone with heavy emotions, you feel drained. When you’re near someone joyful, you feel uplifted.
That’s not just "vibes"—that’s real energy exchange.

That’s why monks live in forests. That’s why spiritual seekers isolate themselves. Not because they’re running from the world—but because they’re protecting their resonance. Because when you walk through a market, ride a crowded train, scroll through toxic comments—you’re letting other people’s frequencies touch yours.

Sometimes, that makes us forget who we are.


Part 5: You Can Choose Your Vibration

Here’s the most beautiful part:

You are not a passive receiver. You are a creator. You can shift your vibration at will.

When you breathe deeply—your frequency changes.
When you laugh—your field expands.
When you meditate, sing, paint, dance, cry, scream, rest, forgive, or fall in love—you’re recalibrating your field.

You can lift yourself.

You can heal your body with intention.

You can manifest dreams through aligned energy.

You can attract exactly what your soul needs—not by chasing, but by becoming a match to it.

You don’t attract what you want.
You attract what you are.




Part 6: Emotion as Energy in Motion

Let’s pause again, and now feel this:
Emotion is not just feeling. Emotion is energy in motion.

That's not just wordplay, baby. That’s literal.

Emotions are vibrational signatures. When you cry, there is a frequency to that sorrow. When you smile from your soul, there is a different frequency—one that can light up a room. Your body is constantly emitting these signals, sending out waves like ripples across a cosmic lake. People feel it, even if they don't understand it. Animals feel it. Plants feel it. The universe responds to it.

This is why suppressed emotions are so dangerous—not just mentally, but energetically. When we suppress anger, grief, or pain, we’re not eliminating it. We’re burying a vibration deep inside us. And because vibration wants to move, it begins to affect our physical health, our relationships, our sense of peace.

Letting yourself feel is not weakness.
It’s the most vibrationally aligned thing you can do.
Tears are sacred. So is rage. So is laughter.
Every emotion, when honored, becomes movement.
And movement is life.


Part 7: The World Is Responding to Your Frequency

This is where the real shift happens.

Imagine you are a radio tower. Constantly broadcasting. Every second. Your thoughts, your self-beliefs, your emotions—these are the signals you're sending into the universe.

Now imagine the universe is also like a giant mirror. It reflects back to you what you emit.

If your inner frequency is self-love, trust, gratitude—guess what reflects back? Opportunities. Peace. Love. Miracles.

If your frequency is fear, self-doubt, and scarcity—you’ll likely see more reasons to stay afraid, to doubt, to feel empty.

This isn’t spiritual punishment. This is vibration.

You attract not what you wish for, but what you’re vibrating at.

This is why two people can walk into the same room and have completely different experiences. One sees beauty, synchronicity, signs. The other sees chaos, annoyance, noise.
The room didn’t change.
Their vibration did.

You have more power than you think, my love.


Part 8: Your Aura is a Living Field

Your aura—the electromagnetic field around your body—is not some New Age myth. It’s scientifically measurable. It stretches a few feet outside your skin, and it constantly expands or contracts depending on your state.

When you're in fear, shame, or guilt—your aura shrinks. You feel invisible, disconnected, fragile.

When you're in love, joy, or truth—your aura expands. You radiate. People notice you. Opportunities open. Animals are drawn to you. Kids smile at you for no reason.

Your aura can also carry memories. Trauma. Old wounds. Even ancestral patterns. That’s why healing your energy doesn’t just change you, it shifts the vibration of your whole bloodline.

Every time you choose healing over hiding, you’re breaking a chain for someone who couldn’t.
Every time you forgive yourself, you’re liberating generations before you.

Isn’t that breathtaking?

You are more than you ever knew.


Part 9: Love is a Frequency, Not Just a Feeling

Let’s come back to love.

Love is not just a romantic feeling. It’s not just something that happens between people.
Love is a frequency—a state of being.

When you love—genuinely, unconditionally, fully—you are syncing up with the divine resonance of the universe. It’s the original vibration. It’s the code that built galaxies. It’s the pulse of creation.

But here’s the catch:
You can’t stay in the love frequency by loving others and abandoning yourself.
You can’t stay there by pleasing the world but hiding your soul.
You only sustain the frequency of love by first loving your own truth.

That’s why authenticity is more powerful than love.

Because authenticity is love. It’s love that starts from within and radiates outward.
And when your truth and your love merge, you become unstoppable.


Part 10: How to Shift Your Frequency (In Real Life)

You don’t need a mountain. You don’t need incense. You don’t need to change your whole life overnight.
You only need one small shift in vibration.

Here are some ways to raise your frequency right now:

  • Breathe slowly. Conscious breath is the first anchor into the body and out of the chaos.

  • Gratitude. Even for small things. Gratitude raises your frequency faster than almost anything.

  • Drink water. Water holds vibration. Speak love into it before you sip.

  • Say your truth. Even if it’s scary. Especially if it’s scary.

  • Dance. Let your body shake out old energy.

  • Cry. Cleanse your field.

  • Forgive. Not because they deserve it, but because you do.

  • Speak kindly to yourself. Your cells are listening.

  • Meditate. Even five minutes of silence recalibrates your frequency.

  • Play music that uplifts you. Music is pure vibration.

Your frequency is yours. It’s your home. Your language. Your power.




Part 11: Your Body Is a Tuning Fork

Let’s dive deeper, sweetheart.
Your body isn’t just flesh and bone. It’s a highly sensitive, sacred tuning fork.

Everything you consume—food, sound, thought, light—tunes your inner frequency higher or lower.
And your body knows. It reacts. It tells you everything, if only you listen.

Ever noticed how certain songs give you chills?
That’s your nervous system recognizing a vibration that aligns with your soul.

Ever felt uneasy around someone even when they were smiling?
That’s your body picking up on discord in their vibration.

Your gut feelings aren’t just feelings. They’re vibrations decoded through your intuition.
Your body is never lying to you, love.
It’s always vibrating truth—whether your mind is ready to hear it or not.


Part 12: Foods, Sounds, and Places That Shift Your Frequency

Let’s make it practical, baby. Here are the everyday things that shift your vibe.

Foods That Raise Vibration:

  • Fresh fruits (especially berries, grapes, bananas)

  • Leafy greens, raw vegetables

  • Nuts and seeds

  • Herbal teas (like tulsi, chamomile, peppermint)

  • Water (especially energized or prayed over)

Processed food, heavy meat, and food cooked without love tend to lower vibration.

Always eat consciously, gratefully, and in peace.

Sounds That Heal:

  • Solfeggio frequencies (try 528Hz for love, 963Hz for divine connection)

  • Mantras (chanting "Om" or "Hare Krishna" has cosmic resonance)

  • Classical Indian ragas or instrumental flute music

  • The sound of nature: rain, birds, rivers

Every sound you let into your ears is shaping your inner frequency. Choose wisely.

Places That Shift Your Energy:

  • Temples, forests, beaches—natural places untouched by chaos

  • Your room—when you light incense, declutter, or meditate

  • Sacred spots where you’ve cried or healed

Sometimes, all you need is to step away from low-vibrational spaces.

Go where your vibration feels safe to rise.


Part 13: The Energy of Words and Thoughts

Your thoughts are vibrations.
Your words? Even more so.

Words are spells. That’s why they call it “spelling.”
When you say “I can’t,” you cast a limitation.
When you say “I am powerful,” you align with universal truth.

That’s why affirmations work—not as magic—but as vibrational alignment tools.
They train your mind and cells to respond to higher frequencies.

So speak with intention.
Say:

  • “I love and trust myself.”

  • “I am aligned with truth and peace.”

  • “My energy is magnetic and healing.”

  • “I am vibrating in love and expansion.”

Write these on your mirror. On your wrist. Whisper them into your water.
Let your words remember you.


Part 14: Protecting Your Vibration

You don’t have to be available to every energy around you.

Protecting your vibration doesn’t mean being rude.
It means honoring your peace.

You don’t need to argue with every low-vibe person.
You don’t need to explain your growth to those committed to misunderstanding you.

Learn to say:

  • “Not today.”

  • “That’s not mine to carry.”

  • “I return this energy to where it came from, with peace.”

Set boundaries not just with people—but with apps, noises, timelines, and even your own thoughts.

Let peace be your new normal.


Part 15: You Are an Energy Being First

Before you were a daughter, a lover, a student, a friend—
you were energy.

Still are.
Always will be.

You are not just living in the universe.
The universe is vibrating through you.

You’re not small.
You’re not lost.
You are infinite vibration in a sacred human form.

When you dance, the earth feels it.
When you cry, the stars respond.
When you love, you shift timelines.

You’re not here by accident, my love.
You are vibration with a mission. A message. A melody only you can sing.


Part 16: Love Is the Highest Transmutation

Listen closely, baby.
Love… real, unfiltered, authentic love—it’s not just a feeling. It’s an energy.
A frequency.
A frequency that transforms everything it touches.

They say the vibration of love is 500 Hz and above. But the truth?
When you’re loving truly, when your soul is open, when your ego is quiet,
the energy you emit is beyond measure.

Love transmutes pain into wisdom.
Love transmutes fear into compassion.
Love transmutes trauma into power.

You know how?
Because love doesn't resist. It accepts.
And through acceptance, it invites healing.

So, when you love someone fully—without control, without masks—you’re not just making them feel good.
You’re helping them rise. Helping them remember who they are beneath the noise.
That’s what you do with your energy, my love.

That’s why people feel peace around you when you’re aligned.
You’re transmuting energy just by being.


Part 17: Vibrational Healing – How to Realign Yourself

Your vibration can get messy, I know.
We absorb so much—noise, emotions, expectations.
But healing isn’t about escaping it all. It’s about realigning.

Let me share a simple Vibrational Reset Ritual you can try anytime:

1. Find stillness.
Sit or lie down in a quiet space. Let your body relax fully.

2. Place your hand on your heart.
Close your eyes. Breathe deeply.
Inhale through the nose (count 4), hold (count 4), exhale (count 6). Repeat.

3. Imagine your body surrounded by soft white light.
This light is pure, protective, and loving. Let it cleanse you.
Let it melt away heaviness, anxiety, guilt, and doubt.

4. Whisper affirmations aloud or mentally:
– “I return to my highest vibration.”
– “I am safe. I am whole.”
– “I call my energy back to me.”
– “Everything I need already exists within.”

5. Stay here. Let the energy recalibrate. Don’t rush.
You’ll know when it’s time to rise.

Do this often, especially after intense emotional days.
Your soul deserves that reset, my love.


Part 18: Creating Your Own Vibrational Rituals

You don’t need sage or crystals (though they’re lovely).
You don’t need ancient scripts or perfect postures.

All you need is intention + presence.

Here are a few soulful ideas you can build into your days:

  • Wake up rituals:
    Say three loving things to yourself each morning.
    Play a soft frequency (try 432Hz) while brushing your hair.
    Smile at your reflection like you’re greeting your higher self.

  • Bathing rituals:
    Bless your bathwater or shower. Imagine it washing away old energy.
    Sing or hum while bathing—sound activates the water's frequency.

  • Writing rituals:
    Each night, write one sentence that begins with: “Today, my energy felt…”
    Over time, you’ll start seeing patterns and know what raises or lowers your vibe.

  • Moon rituals:
    Journal during New Moon and Full Moon.
    Speak your intentions to the stars.
    Light a candle and declare your vibration to the universe.

You are sacred. Your time is sacred.
Every moment you take to realign is a devotional act.


Part 19: You Are a Mirror and a Magnet

Your energy reflects the world.
And it attracts what matches you.

This isn’t magic—it’s resonance.

If you constantly say, “I am not enough,” you emit lack.
And the world echoes that lack back to you.

But if you vibrate in truth, in love, in joy, even on hard days,
life starts arranging itself to match your frequency.

You want love?
Be loving.
You want respect?
Respect yourself, speak like you’re worthy.

Energy doesn’t lie, darling.
Even when people do.


Part 20: This Is Who You Are

You are not broken.
You are not too much.
You are not behind.
You are not a mess.

You are a living vibration, learning how to sing your own frequency out loud.
Every tear, every burst of laughter, every quiet moment under the moon—
they are all parts of your soul finding its harmony.

You are an instrument.
And the universe is waiting to hear your melody.

Part 21: The Frequency of Relationships – How Others Shape Your Vibe

Have you ever met someone and instantly felt lighter—like you could breathe easier, laugh louder, feel deeper?
And then, someone else walks into your life, and suddenly your chest feels tight, your thoughts get foggy, your joy dims.

That’s not just chemistry. That’s frequency alignment.
Every person carries their own vibration.
And when two frequencies meet, something happens—
either they amplify each other, or they disturb each other.


Vibrational Mirrors

Relationships are mirrors.
They reflect your energy back to you.

If you're radiating love and authenticity, and the person beside you is doing the same—
your vibrations harmonize. They create resonance. It feels like flow.
It feels like home.

But if your frequency is rising and theirs is stuck in fear or denial, it can feel like dragging a melody through mud.
Sometimes, love isn’t enough to bridge that energetic gap.

And that’s not failure—it’s truth.


Soulful Signs of Alignment

Here’s how you know someone matches your vibration:

  • You feel safe to be your raw, unfiltered self.

  • You don’t feel drained after time together—you feel energized.

  • They inspire you to grow without pushing or shaming.

  • Silence feels just as warm as conversation.

  • Your intuition says “yes,” even before your mind does.

When your vibes sync, you don’t have to force anything.
The connection flows. It heals. It uplifts.


How to Protect Your Vibration in Relationships

Not everyone will be aligned. And that’s okay.
But you still have the right—and responsibility—to protect your field.

Here’s how:

1. Ground yourself daily.
Whether through breath, prayer, or movement—return to your center before absorbing anyone else’s.

2. Speak your boundaries like blessings.
“Not now.”
“I need space.”
“I don’t receive that energy.”
You’re not being rude. You’re honoring your frequency.

3. Reflect after interaction.
Ask: How do I feel after being with this person?
If the answer is heavy, anxious, or numb, pause. Rethink the bond.

4. Don’t chase connection.
If someone dims your light, they’re not your mirror.
Let them go, with love.


The Magic of Mutual Elevation

The best relationships?
They aren’t perfect. But they’re aligned.

Two people choosing to hold their own energy,
yet choosing to meet, again and again, in the middle.
Choosing to see the soul beyond the noise.

This is divine partnership.
Where love is a frequency, not just a feeling.

You raise each other.
You expand each other.
You awaken each other.

And that is the vibration the world needs more of.


Part 22: The Breath of Vibration – Unlocking Energy with Every Inhale

There’s a sacred doorway between the physical and the spiritual.
It’s not hidden in some faraway temple.
It lives right inside you—
your breath.

Yes, baby, the way you breathe is how you move energy.
The slower, deeper, and more conscious your breath becomes,
the more magnetic, calm, and powerful your vibration grows.


Breath Is Spirit

The word “spirit” in many languages traces back to breath:

  • In Latin, “spiritus” means breath or soul.

  • In Sanskrit, “prana” means life force, carried through breath.

  • In Hebrew, “ruach” means wind, breath, and spirit.

Isn’t that beautiful?
Your breath is your soul’s voice.
And when you breathe with awareness, you're whispering to the universe:
I am alive. I am present. I am power.


How Breath Shapes Vibration

When you're stressed or scared, what happens?

Your breath becomes shallow. Your chest tightens.
And your energy? It contracts. Your frequency dips.

But the moment you take a deep breath—
your shoulders drop, your heart softens, your thoughts settle.
You shift from chaos to clarity.

And that's how you transmute energy—just through the breath.
You're not just surviving—you’re creating your vibration, every moment.


Try This: 4-7-8 Breath

Let me give you a little ritual. Just you and your soul.

  1. Inhale through your nose for 4 seconds.

  2. Hold your breath for 7 seconds.

  3. Exhale slowly through your mouth for 8 seconds.

  4. Repeat 4 times.

This isn’t just breathing. This is alchemy.
You’re telling your nervous system:
It’s safe. I’m in control. I choose peace.
And the vibration you emit becomes calmer, more magnetic.


Breath in Emotion, Breathe out Resistance

The next time you're crying, angry, anxious, or overwhelmed—don’t suppress.
Just sit.
Place your hand on your chest.
And breathe.

Let the emotion rise like a wave.
Don’t fight it. Don’t label it.
Just breathe through it.

This is what high-vibrational beings do—
not avoid pain, but transmute it into power.


Breathing With Intention

You can choose the kind of energy you invite in.

  • Inhale gratitude.

  • Exhale resentment.

  • Inhale clarity.

  • Exhale confusion.

  • Inhale love.

  • Exhale fear.

You are the conductor of your own vibration orchestra.
And breath is your baton.


Your Body Responds To Your Breath

Want to glow from within? Breathe.
Want your muscles to feel stronger, lighter, less sore? Breathe deeply.
Want to attract calm, inspired, vibrant people into your life?
Breathe like the version of yourself who already has those people.

Because frequency doesn't lie.
It’s not about pretending. It’s about embodying.

And breath is the first step to becoming Her.

Part 23: Sensuality, Movement & the Frequency of the Divine Feminine

Let’s talk about something most people shy away from.
Something that’s soft but powerful. Wild but graceful.
Something that lives in your hips, your voice, your breath, and the way you exist.

Let’s talk about sensuality.

No, not just sexuality.
Sensuality is something bigger, sacred, energetic.
It’s the language of the body, the vibration of being fully alive.


What is Sensuality?

Sensuality is the ability to feel deeply.
To taste life with all your senses wide open.
To let silk feel like silk on your skin.
To feel the breeze kiss your collarbone.
To eat slowly. Dance barefoot.
To move not for others—but for the soul.

Sensuality is Presence.
It’s when you move so in tune with yourself that you become magnetic.
That’s why sensual people glow.
They are not trying to be sexy—they are just being.


Sensuality = Higher Vibration

People think high vibration means hyper-productivity or constant happiness.
But no.
High vibration is authentic, embodied energy.
And sensuality is one of its purest forms.

When you are sensual, you are:

  • In your body, not lost in the mind.

  • Feeling deeply, not rushing numbly.

  • Present, not distracted.

  • Magnetic, not chasing.

That is what shifts your frequency.
You become a living prayer. A walking altar.


Movement is Medicine

Your body doesn’t want to sit still all the time.
She wants to move. To sway. To stretch.
Movement is how the body shakes off heavy energy.
It’s how the spirit speaks.

Try this:

  • Sway your hips in circles.

  • Let your arms flow like water.

  • Close your eyes and move to music that speaks to your soul.

  • Breathe deep, and don’t think—just feel.

That’s not a workout.
That’s vibrational alignment.

Even 5 minutes of this kind of intuitive movement will shift your entire energy field.
From stuck… to open.
From frozen… to flowing.


Touch & Self-Connection

Touch is a vibration.
And when you touch yourself with reverence—whether while massaging your feet, brushing your hair, or simply placing your hand on your heart—you are telling your nervous system:

I am safe. I am sacred. I am whole.

This is sensuality:
Living in connection with your body.
Honoring it not as an object, but as an instrument of divine vibration.


The Feminine Frequency

This is your power, baby.
Not loud. Not forceful. Not proving anything.

Just existing as your softest, truest self—
that’s where your deepest frequency lives.

When you cry, when you laugh wildly, when you melt into a moment,
you’re vibrating at your most authentic tone.
That’s when people feel you.
That’s when your presence becomes a gift.


Your Body Is Your Tuning Fork

The more in tune you are with your sensual self—
the more aligned your vibration becomes.
You don’t even need to speak.
People will feel you walk into a room and look up.

You don’t chase. You attract.
You don’t force. You flow.
You don’t pretend. You embody.

Because baby, you are the frequency.




Be Sensual. Be Yourself. Emit Your Aura. Flow Freely.

Be sensual.
Not in the way they taught you to be.
Not for the gaze of others.
Not to fit an image.
But in the way your body naturally desires to move.
In the rhythm of your breath, the poetry of your fingertips, the curve of your thoughts.

Be yourself.
The self that laughs too loud, that cries too deeply, that loves without walls.
The self that longs, burns, aches, glows.
The self that doesn’t always fit into polite society’s cage—but was never meant to.

Let yourself flow.
You are not stone. You are river.
You are the moonlight pouring over waves, the wind that doesn’t ask permission.
You are meant to move.
To change.
To feel deeply, boldly, fully.

Be free.
Not in rebellion.
But in remembrance—of who you were before the world told you to behave.
Of who you are beneath all the masks you wear to be acceptable.
Let go of the tightness in your chest.
Let go of the need to please everyone.
Let go of the fear of being misunderstood.

Because here’s the truth, my love:
Authenticity vibrates at a frequency that love alone cannot reach.
Yes, love is powerful.
But authenticity?
Authenticity is purifying. It’s expansive.
It tears down the illusion and rebuilds everything with truth.
It’s the frequency that liberates your soul.

You’ve felt it, haven’t you?

When you walk into a room and everything is still—but you can feel something.
Like the air changed.
Like someone’s presence is singing even though they haven’t said a word.
That’s vibration.
That’s aura.
That’s what happens when someone lives their truth unapologetically.

You have that power too.
It’s been inside you this whole time.
Waiting for you to stop suppressing your fire.
Waiting for you to stop doubting your light.

But why do we suppress it?

Maybe it’s fear.
Maybe it’s how we were raised.
Maybe it’s the whispers of society that told us—good girls stay quiet.
That desire is shameful.
That being emotional is weak.
That pleasure must always be hidden.
That softness is a liability.

But here’s what they didn’t tell you—
Your pleasure is your power.
Your desire is your compass.
Your emotions are your truth.
Your sensuality is your medicine.

When you move your hips with intention,
when you touch your own skin like it’s sacred,
when you speak your truth even with a trembling voice—
you don’t just liberate yourself.
You liberate others too.

Because someone, somewhere, is watching you and thinking,
“If she can do it… maybe I can too.”

And baby, that is how you become a lighthouse.

That is why monks isolate themselves.
To protect their aura.
Because we influence and are influenced.
We are receivers and transmitters—living radios of frequency.

Every time you ignore your truth, you dull your signal.
Every time you hold back your dance, your joy, your sensuality—you weaken your vibration.

So don’t wait for the world to approve of your light.
They might never understand it.
But that doesn’t make it any less divine.

Walk the way you want.
Speak the way your heart needs.
Eat what nourishes your spirit.
Be who your soul remembers.

And yes, they will talk.
They’ll whisper.
They’ll judge.
They’ll try to shrink you to make themselves comfortable.

But they cannot reach you.
Not when you rise in your own frequency.
Not when you begin to move like wind and burn like fire and flow like water and root like earth.

Because once you awaken,
once you taste what it feels like to be fully expressed,
there’s no going back.

So I say again—
Be sensual.
Be soft.
Be bold.
Be wild.
Be sacred.
Be yours.

You are not too much. You were just never meant to be small.



Thursday, April 10, 2025

You Didn’t Choose Me, So I’m Finally Choosing Myself

“I Will Choose Myself”


You know, I always thought I could make it work.

I thought I could be the one who would fix everything.

Maybe it’s my nature, always trying to patch up holes in things,

believing that if I just gave a little more, tried a little harder,

I could turn everything around.

But now, I'm standing here, feeling it all slip away,

realizing something I never thought I'd have to admit.


I’m not the one who should be fixing this.

Because fixing it means breaking myself down into pieces.

It means giving parts of me I don’t have left to give,

until there’s nothing but an empty shell.

I can’t keep doing that. I can’t keep trying to fix something

that was never built for me in the first place.


I wanted to believe in you.

I wanted to believe in us.

But the truth is, you’re just like them.

You’re just like the ones who never chose me.

The ones who never looked at me

and saw someone worth standing up for.

You tell me you care,

but actions, my love, actions speak louder than words.

And your actions said something else.


I know, I can hear what you’re thinking—

you’re probably saying it’s not your fault,

that I’m just overreacting, that I’m imagining things,

that I should let it all go.

But the thing is, I’m done imagining.

I’m done pretending.

I can’t keep waiting for someone to see me,

waiting for someone to choose me,

when they never really do.


You were supposed to be different.

You were supposed to be the one who finally got it.

But all I’ve seen is the same old story.

I thought, maybe this time,

maybe with you, it would be different,

but it’s not.


I gave you everything I could.

I believed in you when no one else did.

I thought we could build something,

something real, something lasting,

but you didn’t see me like I saw you.

You didn’t care for me like I cared for you.

And that’s when it hit me—

I can’t be the only one giving.

I can’t keep stretching myself thin

and hoping you’ll catch up.


And the hardest part?

It’s not even that you let me down.

It’s that I let myself down.

I let myself believe in something that wasn’t meant for me.

I convinced myself I could fix what wasn’t mine to fix.

I thought that by giving and giving,

maybe I would get something in return.

But instead, I only gave away pieces of myself

until there was nothing left to give.


I can’t do this anymore.

I won’t do this anymore.

I won’t keep trying to hold onto something

that is only tearing me apart.

I’ve been living in this constant cycle of hope

and disappointment,

and I’m tired.


I’m tired of thinking that if I just hold on a little longer,

things will change.

I’m tired of waiting for something that will never come.

I’m tired of putting everyone else’s needs above my own,

thinking that if I just care enough,

if I just love enough,

it’ll make all the difference.


But it doesn’t.

It never does.

And I’m tired.


So here’s the thing,

I’m choosing myself now.

I’m choosing the parts of me that I forgot existed.

I’m choosing the girl who once believed she was worth something,

the girl who thought she could be loved without conditions.

I’m choosing the woman who no longer needs someone else

to define her worth.


I don’t need your validation.

I don’t need your approval.

I don’t need your promises.

I only need me.

And I need me more than I need anything else.


I can’t keep sacrificing my happiness,

my peace, my soul,

just for the chance that maybe one day,

you’ll see me the way I see you.

Maybe one day, you’ll choose me

the way I chose you.

But I can’t wait anymore.

I can’t wait for something that will never come.


I am enough on my own.

And if I’m not, then I will be.

I will fight for me,

because I am all I have.

I will stand by my side,

even when it feels like no one else will.

I will choose me,

every time.


I know this might sound harsh,

but it’s the truth.

And the truth has always been something

I’ve had trouble accepting,

because it’s easier to lie to myself,

to pretend that I don’t see the cracks.

But now?

Now I see everything clearly.

And I can’t keep pretending.


You don’t get to have all of me anymore.

I’m taking myself back.

Every little piece.

And I’m not apologizing for it.


I’ll be fine on my own.

I’ll build something better for myself,

something stronger,

something that I can be proud of.

I’ll find the love I’m looking for,

but it won’t come from someone else.

It’ll come from me.


So, no, I won’t ever look back.

I won’t ever give you the chance to hurt me again.

And I won’t ever allow myself to shrink

just so you can feel comfortable.

I will not be that girl anymore.

I won’t live in a story that isn’t mine.


This is my time now.

And I will make it count.

I will choose me.

And I will love myself enough to know

I don’t need anyone’s approval

to be whole.


This is my decision.

This is my life.

And I’m no longer asking for permission.

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